I Failed in S4 and How I feel?

Today my S4 result came. I looked up in University site for my result.

And Finally, I have failed in two subjects in S4 results. I was waiting for this moment all these years.

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2017-03-31 at 3.27.20 PM I captured this screenshot of my result. Marked “U” are subjects I failed!

Why am I writing this as a blog? I will answer this at end of this blog.

First,  How do I feel about it?

I feel as normal. 

My Subconscious keeps complaining-

Are you kidding me?

You just failed in two of those subjects!

No one is going to hire you!

You won’t be able to enroll for placement from whooping companies who will be there in your college, exactly 1 year down the lane.

You won’t be able to enroll in those IIM’s nor IIT for Higher Educations coz ur GPA is low.

No good girl will look up to you.

The neighbors will think that you are a piece of sh!t.

The parents of your friends will ask them to no longer befriend you.

How can you look at Class tutor?

(Adding more after calling(asking how he felt) up my friend who happened to have failed in 1 subject)

You let the people down who believed in you.

You lacked praying to God.

You are not hardworking enough.

I am really pissed of the Faculty who didn’t even care to increase my mark a little bit, just so that I could pass through.

This is the first time you are failing in an exam in academics. You could have studied little harder.

Your life is over!

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Writer laughing while writing these infinitely many possibilities.

(For voice-How I think I laugh)

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Now to the answer for above.

Why am I writing this as a blog?

The Life is filled with ups and down. No matter what you do, there are certain things you need to learn, you need to practice, you need to face when you take the next jump. These failures are necessary and sufficient for that. With that

Dear Felix, When you feel down in future. Remember El Psy Congroo

( meaning- To Harden the Mind)

Update December 2017: Looks like University made a mistake, given revaluation my grades were updated to C from U and successfully cleared the lab as well. 

New CGPA- 7.85*

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